What if I hadn’t found Hypnobirthing?
I can totally freak myself out when I think about what my life might have been like if I hadn’t found Hypnobirthing. If that chance encounter with an old friend hadn’t introduced me to this strange sounding birth preparation that’s actually really logical and incredible.
Anyone who knows me knows how scared I was of giving birth I was when I was pregnant with Harris, my first. It haunted me. I even considered that I’d rather have an elective Caesarian. I spent day and night thinking how awful child birth was going to be. I had all the ‘what ifs’ appearing in dreams I had, or should I say nightmares.
Knowing what I know now about birth, I have no doubt that if I hadn’t found Hypnobirthing my fear and negative expectations would have massively impacted on my son’s birth. Perhaps it would have been exactly how I thought it would be. Just like those nightmares.
It would have certainly been adrenalin fuelled and therefore slower and more uncomfortable. Maybe I’d have needed lots of intervention. No doubt it would have been far more challenging and much less positive.
I’d probably have made different choices. Or perhaps I’d have made none, not knowing I could.
My start to motherhood would have felt very different.
Would his siblings exist?
Would I have left a stressful teaching career to do something that makes me smile every single day?
Would I have met such wonderful families through Hypnobirthing, lots of whom I now call friends?
Would I have tools that I use every single day to help me feel calm and positive?
Would I have felt as confident in my parenting decisions, knowing that we don’t always have to follow everyone’s ‘advice’?
Would I have a new found respect in my body that my births have given me?
Would other people have missed out on Hypnobirthing if I’d have not shared my experiences?
Hypnobirthing is more than just a calmer pregnancy and birth.